Hi All,

My son Zayn passed away when I was 38 weeks due to a true knot in his umbilical cord. He was my first child. We are getting ready to TTC again, I'm just curious if anyone is pregnant right now after stillbirth and how you've been navigating all of the emotions?

Also, would love to hear if anyone had a baby after a stillbirth. I'm just in total disbelief I will ever bring home a living child. it doesn't even feel like that will ever be in the stars for me. Big hugs to all of you.

My first baby was stillborn at 30 weeks. Even just typing that still feels overwhelming and unnatural. The lines between life and death shouldn’t be as blurred as they are for us. No cause was found for our little girl’s death, which made my second pregnancy feel so risky at every moment.

With my second pregnancy I tried to be extra cautious. My doctor put me on progesterone for the first trimester and then aspirin for the second and third trimesters. I did kick counts religiously twice a day. I bought a fetal heart Doppler and used it to listen to me son’s heart everyday before bed. I went on walks everyday and drank soooo much water. And I went straight to the hospital at the slightest sign of something feeling wrong.

My son was born safely just over a year after we lost my daughter. It is an absolute miracle that he arrived crying and breathing and safe. He’s almost one now. I wish every moment of every day that I could have both of my children here, but I know that isn’t the reality available to me.

Pregnancy after a stillbirth is scary, but I wanted to share a bit of my story to hopefully provide some hope. No other child will ever fix the heartache of a loss, but I’m finding that grief for my daughter and joy in my son can coexist.

My son was stillborn four years ago between 40 and 41 weeks. His little sisters are now 1 and 3. The first pregnancy after stillbirth I definitely didn’t believe that baby was coming home. The second I had a little more hope but it was still pretty anxious. Be gentle with yourself and take it one step at a time is my advice. Staying in the moment and not jumping to the end was helpful for me. This page is also full of people who had babies successfully after a stillbirth. My son didn’t have a knot but probably placental insufficiency that killed him once labor started - my understanding is that a knot isn’t more likely to recur, and I’m sure they will be watching very carefully. Good luck!

Hi Zayn's mom,

Pregnancy after stillbirth is hard. So emotional, happy to have hope but sad for all the reminders and triggers, especially when you get close to the later weeks when you lost your baby last time. It's really draining!! I am trying to forgive myself for not being very productive/good company right now.

I wish you all the best for a healthy pregnancy, both physically and mentally.