Hi Guys,
I found out that I am pregnant again after losing our daughter 5 1/2 months ago. I am currently 6 weeks pregnant as of today. I am so scared of having this baby and I am so scared of losing this baby. I have been experiencing the same nauseated feelings as before and it's both relieving because this is a good sign, and emotionally taxing because it brings up so many feelings about our precious daughter. I have also been spotting on and off since I found out two weeks ago, which also happened in my last pregnancy. My doctor told me that brown discharge can be normal but also abnormal, that only time can tell. She also told me that spotting does slightly increase your chances of having a miscarriage. I am so scared and exhausted. I spend a good amount of hours at night worrying and running to the bathroom convinced that this pregnancy is over. I know I just need to relax but I am so terrified. Can anyone offer me advice? We see our doctor tomorrow and are having an early ultra sound performed to make sure that this is a viable pregnancy. Any advice is greatly appreciated. Thank you.

A.S it IS terrifying! I have been there and it is so scary and exhausting. All I can say is try to keep breathing and check off one milestone at a time. As in, just focus on getting to that ultrasound appointment and deal with that outcome then move onto the next step. Tick little boxes and inch closer to that due date. And if something goes wrong deal with that then. Do you have a Doppler at home? Saved my sanity with my rainbow!!

All the best, let us know how the ultrasound goes xxx

Thank you Shelby's Mum. I haven't bought a Doppler yet, but I plan on doing so when I get further along. I will definitely check back in after my appt. tomorrow. I am trying to be positive but I know what the "other side" feels like. When I experienced spotting before I felt like I was immune to the bad things that could go wrong, not me, no way...Now I feel like I AM the bad luck, the black cat or the shattered mirror. I just want something good, just one thing.

My appt. went well, thank God....We were able to see our little baby's heartbeat on the ultra sound, 111 beats per minute. Right now everything is looking good, my blood levels are in the normal range and I feel incredibly nauseous. I won't breathe a little sigh of relief until we are out of the danger zone at 13 weeks. I just wish I could wake up in September and have a baby in my arms. Shelby's Mum, where did you buy your doppler and how much was it?

A.S., we were able to get a doppler free of charge for our rainbow pregnancy from the organization Tiny Heartbeats: http://tinyheartbeats.org/
We used it a lot in the weeks between about 13-14 and when the baby's movement was more regular (20-22 weeks).
Wishing you a healthy pregnancy!

A.S I bought mine here http://www.parentslikeus.com.au/sonotech-xpress-ultrasonic-fetal-doppler.html it came with gel that lasted 2 pregnancies and is still half full. It worked well- I found our second rainbows heartbeat at 10 weeks.

Thank you guys so much! Your advice is greatly appreciated. I go for another ultra sound next week (at 9 weeks), I'll look into finding a Doppler then :)

I just wanted to update you guys on my progress. I made it past the first scary hurdle, I am 12 weeks and 1 day! I recently opted to have genetic testing done, hopefully the results will be in soon. Anne, I contacted the founder of Tiny Heartbeats and my Doppler is on its way! My doctor showed me how to use one at my 12 week appt. this past Tuesday, I hope I can find the baby's heartbeat on my own. Any tips?

My husband and I are so hopeful that we can bring this baby into the world alive. I am trying to be thankful for the little things, like the fact that there is a baby in my tummy at all right now. Thank you guys so much for your advice and support.