Just thinking of you and wondering how you are? xxx

Shannon, I've been thinking of you a lot as well. Sending love!

Me too, Shannon. Don't mean to intrude but hope you're doing OK..

Thinking of you and your babies as well... Sending love.

Today has been a hard day so I came here for comfort - it meant so much to me when I saw my name and all your comments.

I've been feeling pretty lost and overwhelmed lately. The combined grief for this baby (we will name him/her when the hospital confirm the sex), and my boy Hunter is too much sometimes. I don't know who I am anymore, or where I fit. I just keep regressing and losing babies and losing sight of my dreams. It's so hard to have hope anymore...I just feel so broken.

I'm taking some time off work and have gone back to my old counsellor. It felt so wrong to have to see her, this time last year I was strong and ready to face the world again, ready to try for another baby and imagine our future. Now I feel I'm right back where I started, but with all this additional grief and pain.

Thank you again for checking in on me, I am so grateful for the support.

Shannon, I am so sorry sweet Hunter is not with you and for your latest loss. While the circumstances were slightly different I also had over two years of darkness and loss (including a trisomy pregnancy and missed miscarriage) after our daughter died. We even decided to pursue adoption because my doctors didn't believe I could get pregnant again. Fast forward to now, I did surprisingly get pregnant, have a baby and the adoption is now likely to go through (they pulled us from the list for over a year because of the pregnancy)... but I can honestly say that I was able to "find myself" and "start living" even before all that. It took some time but please know that your heart will heal and it may not happen as planned but you will eventually find peace. Sending you hugs!

Shannon, I'm so sorry you find yourself walking another grief path. It just sucks so much. I think Maria has better perspective on this than I do, but I just wanted to let you know that I care. I know it doesn't feel good to go back to therapy and feel like you're back where you were a year ago, but I am glad you're taking steps to take care of yourself. Sending virtual hugs!

Shannon, I'm still thinking of you and hoping you are surrounded by support from good and helpful people. I'm glad you have some time off, please look after yourself, be selfish,, do whatever you can to keep plodding along. I also hope your counsellor is helpful.

We are always here xx

I'm so sorry :( thinking of you

You, Hunter's dad, and your babies are in my thoughts.

Thank you ladies for the thoughts and support, I really do not know what I would do without this site. I have been doing much better lately, am taking care of myself and my husband. We are moving forward for that is all we can do. We are having Baby B's remains cremated this week and taking the ashes back to my home in Ireland to be with Hunter. The 'B' stands for 'Bláithín', which means 'Little Flower' in Gaelic. I will always remember my Little Flower, and of course my darling boy Hunter.