The miscarriage we suffered after my son's stillbirth put a hold on our relationship with our fertility doctor. I think I was in shock...or overcome by anger because when we saw her following confirmation that I'd had a missed miscarriage, I mostly stormed out of her office and haven't been back since. That was December.

We've continue to TTC but now that we're almost six months out without success on our own, I'm ready to go back to see our Dr. I have an appointment in July as that is the earliest I could get.

I feel like I'm running out of time. I am 38.5.
I feel like I've been holding my breath since January 2013 waiting for a living child to come into our lives.
I feel stuck.

Oh R I'm so sorry. I completely understand feeling stuck. i don't have advice or anything else but just know that I understand and felt that way too. Sending you a hug.

R- I am so sorry. Stillbirth and miscarriage are so hard to face on top of each other.

At 35, hubby and I decided we wanted a baby so we started to "try". Almost 2 years later, I got pregnant with Amelia who passed away during labor. We started working with an RE 6 months later and got pregnant the 2nd month which ended in a very early miscarriage. We tried on our own for a month, then went back to taking Clomid with an IUI in January.

After the IUI didn't work in January, we took a break. I couldn't face more drugs, more tracking, more disappointment. I am 39. I totally understand feeling like you are running out of time. I feel stuck- like life is on hold until that living child comes home.

I have no advice but I wanted to share my story with you and let you know that you are not alone.

Thank you for your words, AB and Amelia's mom.