I am just entering the third trimester of my second pregnancy. My first son died a week after he was born full term. It was the most horrible of circumstances. It seems that as the days go by, I get more scared, worried & anxious. We've had over 10 ultrasounds, many MFM appointments and all looks "normal". I am thankful, but I worry knowing how many things can go wrong.
Anyone else feel more worried as time went on in your rainbow pregnancy?

I am right here with you Trying Again...31 weeks into my third pregnancy after our second daughter was stillborn at 32 weeks when my placenta abrupted with no warning. I am so sorry that you don't have your son in arms with you now. I don't know if this helps you at all but you are not alone. I've had an increasing sense of anxiety and dread as the weeks pass. For me I don't think I can feel relaxed until my baby is born alive. Like you, I have lots of scans and appointments, which are very reassuring in the moment. But more often than not I'm awake at night lying as still as I can counting kicks and trying to reassure myself. At the same time there are moments of joy and I am so hopeful but then I quickly revert back to anxious. It's a little like having a split personality. My therapist has been amazing and my husband even more so - but I really think for me the only thing that helps is the passing of time. Which was also the only thing that truly helped after our daughter died. I wish you all the strength and hope in the world getting through these next couple months.

I'm so sorry for your loss, Trying Again. The third trimester of my rainbow pregnancy was really hard for me. The anxiety was overwhelming. For me, increased appointments helped. I had NSTs twice weekly starting at 34 weeks. I had a BPP once a week. I, like JT, had a placental abruption (mine was at 39 weeks). Because my loss was so late, my OB, MFM and I agreed that I would be induced at 37 weeks, which honestly helped me so much - I was so worried about the placenta failing. I also had a Doppler (which some people find stressful) which gave me some respite in the middle of the night. I took off work earlier than I had in my earlier pregnancy and took it easier in general.

I also tried to find some comfort in statistics. The odds of two full term losses in a row are really, really low and I tried to be optimistic that this time I would be on the right end of the stats.

it is not going to be easy, but you will get through it. I remember the nurse, after my rainbow was born, saying I was in for sleepless nights, and telling her that I was going to get more sleep post-delivery than I had for the last month. It was true.

Will be thinking of you! I hope these weeks go as quickly as possible for you.