wasn't sure where to post this,but since it's about pregnancy/babies I thought here was better.
I feel the need to have a little ramble after watching a tv show last evening. It's a UK show,but I'm hoping some people will know what I'm on about.
the show is called One Born Every Minute, and each week features docu style births in a regular maternity unit. I don't often watch,but last night the show featured a woman who had had two previous losses, a neo natal death, and a still birth, and was expecting her fourth child.
Mostly the programme was really sensitive, and brought back a lot of the feelings I had when about to give birth last year. the couple featured were incredibly brave to allow the cameras in, and I'm grateful to them for bringing the subject of baby loss to a wider audience.
The only thing that's bothering me, is the neat ending. I know it's a tv show,and edited etc,but I just found the "happy ending" rather grating.
i personally hate when people think everything is ok now we have Ernest, I hate that people like to neaten up our life, so they will feel better, and I found the tv show(not the couple featured) was trying to do the same thing.
Maybe this is just my problem?
I don't know,
Sorry, I did say it was a ramble, but if anyone here saw the show I'd be interested to know what you thought too?

I didn't see the show but I can relate. I know people mean well, but they often say "but now you have George!" when I tell them of Sam and I feel like saying "yes, but I'm still sad". I am happy and sad all at once. Grateful and bitter together. Wishing it were different always.

I know you'll always miss Florence, in spite of having Ernest. Children are not replaceable. And most people are idiots.

Sending much love.

Yes, I understand. I feel like when I tell people about Henry's death while holding Vivien in my arms, they see only her, see only the happiness she has brought us and none of the intense pain and grief that all simmers under the surface. They can never understand how having another child can never take away the pain of losing the child before. I think the issue is that they can't get outside of themselves, not in such a terrifying way to understand what that must feel like. I feel sorry for them mostly, but yes, it still angers me. this is why I've stopped sharing with people, stopped opening myself up, its sad but true.

Thinking of you honey...
M