I'll start!

Though I have no news. Still just hanging out, expecting my period to start. I tested yesterday (still negative) and skipped it this morning. I only have one test left, and why waste it? I'll probably test again tomorrow morning if nothing else happens. Or I might be too curious and randomly test this afternoon.

How's everyone else?

Fingers crossed for you M.

I called the hospital this morning. I have a scan tomorrow at 11am. I'll be 7 weeks 4 days.

Please keep everything crossed for me????

How's everyone else doing?

I'm still here, reading and wishing/hoping for the best for everyone. George and I are doing well, he's 8 weeks old already and we've found our groove.

Well, I hesitate to admit this, but I got two BFP on Friday!! One in the morning and another when I got home from work, just to prove it to the hubby. Makes me 5 wks tomorrow.

I'm cautiously allowing myself to be excited. Scared to death something will go wrong. I know so many people suffer early losses. Charlotte was my first pregnancy, so this is only my second time. Every cramp or twitch or any feeling at all has me worried. But I'm trying my best to relax. I just know that the test doesn't guarantee a thing.

I will probably test again at the end of the week. If we get another positive, then I'm calling the doctor to schedule my prenatal appt. I just cannot let myself rush into things. Scared that getting happy will set me up for failure.

M - hoping your tests were just too early. maybe you'll get that BFP soon!
B - fingers crossed that all goes well with your scan tomorrow

Thinking of you all.

Plugging along here. My 16 wk checkup went well and we heard the baby's heartbeat. We go back in 3 weeks for the 'big scan'. I'll be 19 wks, and halfway through my pregnancy. Thinking good thoughts!
M-I too hope that the tests are just early
B- I'll be sending good thoughts your way tomorrow!
Great news Susan, I hope everything goes smoothly.
Monique, it's great to hear from mom's whose rainbows have arrived and are doing well!

Hey all. Not much to report here. My period *seems* to have finally stopped, so hurray! Still waiting on results from my husband's chromosome test, should be here any day. Doesn't make any difference anyway, really, just lets us know if we have an increased risk of miscarriage or not. Only way to remedy it either way is to just keep trying. I'm seeing a new OB next week so hopefully the results will be here by then and we will get her opinion on things.

Do you guys remember the friend I told you about who lost her 10-day old baby? The autopsy results finally came in and it turns out the baby had a virus that attacked her heart, and caused her to die of a heart attack. Shit. The docs told her it's possible it was contracted in the womb (how does that work??) and that's why the baby was born 5 weeks early. Everything appeared as it should be so they didn't do any extra testing on the amniotic fluid, etc, so they will never know for sure. Damn, that is scary.

There is so much hurting in the world. I sure hope someday to know a reason for it all.

Hope everyone is doing okay. Will be thinking of you tomorrow B. Hang in there M. Yippee Rachel and Susan, that is all very good news :)

Oh, and there's a girl who is a friend on FB who was due around the same time as me and she had her baby today. She posted a picture of her two older boys holding her new son, and they are both wearing the same "big brother" shirt that I had bought for my son, and then threw away because I couldn't stand looking at it. Oh man, oh man, oh man.

Oh KEELY! Those T-shirts!! Ouchy ouchy ouchy! Seeing that image in that context would I think snap me like a twig.

All quiet here. I am having a down week, kicking myself with a lot of "Why aren't I coping better with the nausea? Why aren't I more grateful to be pregnant? Why am I being so slow to tell people about this pregnancy and why do I waste so much energy resenting people's response?" stuff. Kinda wish I could get drunk, but obviously that's out of the question. This too shall pass I guess.

Thinking of you all. I am sorry I find it hard to write individualised comments because the scrolling up and down the page makes my nausea worse. But I am thinking of you all and sending love.

Susan - congrats

Keely - ouch!

AFM, I am still floating around the reproductive nether. OB wanted me to wait 2 weeks past when my period would normally be due then start provera again, but I don't really HAVE a normal. It's CD30, I haven't O'd there's no sign that my body is trying. My temps are nutty, CM is not fertile at all. It's just not gonna happen, I'm not feeling it. So I'm seriously thinking of just calling them up and making the case to take provera sooner rather than later. Arbitrary waiting will do nothing.

Susan congratulations sweet mamma.
Keely- I found that shirt the other day in #3's closet. ugh.
Love and thoughts to everyone....

Had my first scan on Friday - all appears to be good. Although was dated as only 6wk3days where I thought I was 7wks. Amazing what a difference that made to me - felt like a major 4 day setback. Battling with nausea and fatigue and had a nightmare last night that I had a miscarriage - obviously playing on my mind in a big way. So happy to be preg, but not sure how I'm going to get through the next 7.5 months. Deep breath.

B - good luck with the scan tomorrow!
Monique - lovely to hear that you and your precious child are doing well.
Susan - congrats, and I'm there with you - one week at a time, cautiously optimistic
Rach - yay for healthy heartbeats!! Good luck with the next scan.
M, Keely, Melissa - sending positive vibes your way.
Susan - right there with you with the nausea - hope it passes soon

Keely oh (((hugs))))

:) For all the good news posts.

I picked up my progesterone script today. Had to go through the "here is your exemption certificate/where is your baby conversation AGAIN :(

So now I have to try and conceive. DH is away this weekend on day 12/13/14. Yay. SO perhaps I better hope for a later O this month. Trying to be as relaxed as I can.

QUOTE OF THE DAY "Trying to be as relaxed as I can. "

HA!!!! ie, not very.

Still hoping for you M.

What lovely news Susan and glad that the scans went well Cath and Rachel.

B I have my fingers and toes crossed for you today.

Keely, ouch, ouch, ouch. I am so sorry, how awful.

Glad you and George have found your groove Monique. I can't believe that he is eight weeks old already!

Melissa, I truly hope that everything sorts itself out. Perhaps it would be better to try and get the provera sooner, waiting is just so awful.

Merry, I can't believe you had to have THAT conversation again. Ick. Sending 'relax' vibes.

Sophia, right there with you. Still feeling very nauseous but have convinced myself that it is all in my mind and not actually a pregnancy symptom. Just waiting for the next scan.

we have a heartbeat. one that looks stronger and faster than last time.

one baby, in the right place.

i could barely see for crying.

fingers crossed that all stays well.

love to everyone x

Hooray, B! I'm so happy for you!!

Also congrats to Susan, and everyone else in varying stages of pregnancy. Good luck to those of us trying and hoping.

Thanks for all the crossed fingers, I appreciate them. Nothing happening here. I guess I must have ovulated later than I thought. If I DO somehow end up pregnant, I suppose that means the baby won't be the result of a miraculous cross-country conception. But that's okay, universe (should you happen to be listening)! A non-miraculous conception would still be a miracle to me, and I would joyfully accept.

Wonderfully beautiful B!

Thinking of you M- fingers crossed!

Wonderful to hear B!!

Still sending positive thoughts M!

Thinking of everyone no matter where they are in this journey. One step at a time.

B - that's awesome!

I wish this road were easier for everyone TTC. Fuck it sucks.

I'm 11 weeks today & we heard the heartbeat at the MW's. We're scheduled for an US on Monday but today confirmed that this bean is actually alive. 29 weeks to go. I've got other MW stuff going on - mostly fighting to protect them in the fallout of Foster's death. It's unbelievable what's happening here. As if informed consent wasn't mandated by law.

Hooray B and Sarah and Cath! I just love good news.......

Catherine, hang in there. You too Sophia. You too Melissa. I wish I knew anything about Provera so I could give you some help.

Merry, I hope the progesterone helps. I'm so sorry you had to have "that" conversation again. Ugh.

M, I am still hopefully. It ain't over till AF shows up.

Leslie, I'm so sorry you had a moment with "the shirt" too. Why does that kind of stuff just rip me up, when other things that you would think would tear me up don't?? Oh Grief, how I despise you and your wierdness.

Welp. Heard from the lab today, my husband is all nice and normal too. Doc is supposed to call tomorrow, but the nurse already said basically it means that we are just two pretty unlucky people, at least reproductively. I'm not really sure how to deal with that. Now that we know it really was just happenstance that has caused all of this......IDK, in some ways it makes me even more wary of the process. I mean, the chances of having a baby with spina bifida when you have been on folic acid supplementation and have no MTHFR mutations hovers around 1 in 10,000. Chances of having two miscarriages is about 3% (which is obviously much higher than 1 in 10,000, but still). I guess....I feel like fate might just be sending me a message, maybe we just need to stop. Or maybe this is supposed to be a lesson in perserverence for us. Fuck, I don't know.

Thinking of you guys, even though I am so sad for all of us every day, it's nice to know that there are others out there who have been on the wrong side of the odds and are still pushing through it. Love to you all xoxoxo

Keely -- glad to hear the results are normal.
Fate can kiss my ass, to be honest. I gave up trying to figure out what the odds of all the bad stuff that happened to DS and us since because I'm pretty sure it's shot into statistically impossible by now. It's sort of a hard pill to swallow to just think that there's nothing wrong, nothing that causes anything -- and therefore nothing you can do about it -- and you're just pulling the extremely short straw. :(

B - OMG!!! So happy for you.

AFM, I made my plea to the nurse at my OB's to just give me the Provera instead of making me wait some arbitrary time that is 2 weeks past when my completely un normal "normal" AF due date to try again. I can feel in my body that it's not going to happen. I have zero fertile signs, and my CM is completely weird just like it was last month. It's CD 31. I haven't O'd by now, so am I really going to? What good is it going to be. Let's just move. On.
Awaiting to hear back if the OB ok'd it tomorrow.

Glad to hear all the prego updates. praying for all of us.
Hang in there for all those still trying. Sending good vibes to you all.

We are 11wks 3days. things are going as they should I guess. our next US won't be until 20 wks, and the next Dr appointment will be the first wk in December.

Thank you Keely. I wish I had words of comfort in this confusing time. Not knowing why the hell Cullen died kills me a bit each day. The perinate said that our chances of another stillbirth are the same as they were before. That does not give me much comfort.

On a side note my fertility has finally returned. Hello next level of psychosis and obsessive behavior!

Shit Melissa- I so hope the OB just gives it to you! Why can't things be easy? thinking of you...

Wonderful news Natalie- keep it going.

OB okayed it, I pick up my Provera refill tomorrow.

So once again, my rather reasonable doctor does what I want and I wind up expecting a battle because of other people's horror stories and it turns out to be like... not even a thing.

Well, no more mystery over here! My period started. :(

It was the most likely outcome after all those negative tests, but that doesn't mean I'm not still bummed. I guess this is better than having it drag out for another week or so. But that's the only silver lining I can see. Blegh.

Onward!

Yay Melissa! I'm so glad it was no problem getting the Provera. And fate can kiss my ass too. It's funny, since I posted that I have had several patients come in with all of these very random and strange occurences (for instance, one man who's wife died of cancer three years ago, and now he has been diagnosed with the exact same type of cancer. They have two young children. So awful.) and while I feel terrible, beyond terrible, for them, it's been a very "look, it's not just me" moment for me.

Big boo M! I was really hopeful for you this month. My selfish consolation is that I can start trying again next month, so maybe we will get pregnant together!

Thinking of you all. So happy that there seems to be a lot of good news on this board lately. xoxoxox