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Parents of lost babies and potential of all kinds: come here to share the technicolour, the vividness, the despair, the heart-broken-open, the compassion we learn for others, having been through this mess — and see it reflected back at you, acknowledged and understood.

Thanks to photographer Xin Li and to artist Stephanie Sicore for their respective illustrations and photos.

ttc | pregnancy | birth after loss > Talking about trying

I finally get to post something here instead of lurking.

Dh and I had a looong talk yesterday (and much wine) about my need for another baby. He finally gets it, but had a whole big list of concerns. Most of which I was able to address to his liking. They ranged from "what if you die?" to "what if i lose my job?" to "what if you can't get pregnant?" To the last of which I replied; "honey I am ovulating like a mother fucker right now, if you had even one sperm I could make use of it." (there was wine remember ?-)

He also had some criteria. Which were along the lines of hoping to get a vasectomy reversal that doesn't bankrupt us (hopefully around $5000 though his limit was $7500.) Wanting to know the baby's sex (I wanted a surprise last time. I NEVER want another surprise EVER!) And he doesn't want them home-schooled. Whatever. I can agree to all that. I am tired of homeschooling. I will live at an OB's office, directly under the sonogram machine, even though I dearly loved my homebirth midwife and nothing was her fault. And I will beg, borrow, steal or sit on eternal hold with the insurance company to get those swimmers back on the job.

So, does anyone know a good umm ... balls doctor? ;-)
June 7, 2010 | Unregistered Commentersadkitty
I'm afraid I don't know a doctor specialising in that particular field but I'm glad that a combination of talking and wine helped your DH come round. It is amazing what wine can do. Your response to his final concern did make me laugh.
Hope the insurance company is obliging and that the swimmers will soon be back in action. Also that you are not forced to live at an OB's office but I suspect that, if I ever fall pregnant again, I would also like to spend nine months under a sonogram machine. Assuming I ever make it any further than five and a bit months that is. Sigh.
June 7, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterCatherine W
That's great news! What a relief for you.
June 7, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterMonique
Excellent news! I'm glad you were able to work it out.
June 7, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterSarah H
I'm so, so glad you got somewhere! I have been hoping your husband would come around. Good luck with the reversal and thanks for updating.
June 7, 2010 | Unregistered Commenterjen
Yeah for wine! (and long honest talks)
June 7, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterCara
I do know a good balls doctor!!! Where do you live?? I'm glad to read of your news... I "recognize" you from mdc (I really only lurk there and I really only lurk here too, but I had to unlurk because I do remember your story and I'm very happy for you!)

I would start calling urologists and tell them your story and see if you can find one who would be willing to donate his services to you... or work out some kind of payment plan. You'd still have to pay for the OR fees and anesthesia, but if you could find a kind hearted urologist it would certainly help!

Good luck!
June 9, 2010 | Unregistered Commenterleah
Thanks Leah. You can email me if you'd like. Click my sig for my email address.
June 9, 2010 | Unregistered Commentersadkitty