I have my Nuchal test later this am and I am completely terrified. This is the test that we found out that Devyn had LUTO and the nightmare to try to save his life began. I am having flashbacks. My therapist says that it is post traumatic stress. My husband feels that all will be well, but I just don't have the confidence he has. I have had 5 losses in total in 2 years, all early except for Devyn, and I guess I am a bit jaded. I am trying not to hyperventilate. I hate that my naive self is gone. I wish I could go into the test without the horrific experience I have had hanging in my soul. I resent pregnant women who can do that, and then I feel bad about that resentment too.

No great words of advice, just thinking of you and hoping you get through and all is well. Also wishing it were that easy for you and knowing how hard this must be.

It actually is 5 losses in 3 years, not 2 years.

Paula, I hope it goes well. x

I hope everything goes well today, Paula. I will be thinking of you.

Thank all for your well wishes. It means a lot to me.

It went well and the baby looked good. A lot of movement.

And my risk factors for Downs and Trisomies are very, very low, like last time. That always gets to me because though Devyn was normal, he had a rather rare physical problem he died from. (bad luck lottery) Also I am "advanced maternal age".

As my peri says "We will be cautiously optimistic." I say one hurdle down, a lot more to go.

i'm glad to hear the news was good Paula.

i hope it stays that way to the birth and beyond.

thinking of you.

Paula - glad the scan went well. I felt sick before our 12 week scan as well and it's not even the one we had the bad experience with (that's in 2 and 1/2 weeks). I hate that other women can just head off to their scans worried about their full bladders and excited about finding out the sex.

Hang in there. xx

That's great news, Paula. Definitely a huge hurdle that you've gotten over. Hang in there!

Good news, glad it went well. x