I have had 3 m/c in the last 1.5years. We have no undergone every test out there to have them all come back normal, perfect, healthy, no rhyme or reason.

My husband just went and had the HSG test and considered a good time to start to conceive now. Though, I want too with every part of me, I am so scared to get pregnant again. What have you done to be able to get over this stress or hurdle?

Thanks!

I had a miscarriage last year as well. I barely survived, mentally, and well, it was dangerous medically as well. We started ttc immediately. If it happens again, I am not sure how I would feel. I stress about have another loss and hemorrhaging again. I guess my stubborn nature keeps me going, and ignoring the stress is hard most days, the worry is hard to overcome, but I am determined to have another baby.

I wish you all the best. Your bravery is already evident in that you keep trying. Thinking of you on your new journey.

There isn't a specific thing I've done (long history of loss in addition to Gabe), except to do it. When I examined my feelings, fear (terror) is paramount. I don't know how many more times I can take a loss or how many more times I'm willing to brook the disappointment. I'm scared of what will happen to me mentally if I lose another, especially late like Gabe.

But I know I've survived it before so I believe I can survive it again, and when I add it all up, the pros and cons and fears and hopes, it is clear to me that my desire to be a mother to a living child is greater than my fear of losing another child.

So we go on. It's not easy. It's not a path filled with rainbows and puppies and soft grass. Instead, it's a terrifying walk near the edge of a cliff with no safety net and only a rickety old bar separating me from disaster. But the only way to get what I want and long for is to walk this path and do my best, even if some days my best is a white knuckled grip, staring soundlessly over the gorge and managing only a small shuffling of my feet forward.

There is no other choice for me.

I know you said you've undergone every test out there - but have they tested for clotting disorders? There's a thread on here about thrombophilia, I was shocked to learn that sometimes they don't test for that till you've had 7 miscarriages but it's actually pretty common. Just trying to help, hang in there.