How are you fine ladies doing?

For the pregnant among us - how are things going for you? What is hard for you right now? What has been good for you? What is surprising you?

For the ttc among us - how is it going? Anything to get off your chest? Anyone testing soon? Anyone have tips or advice to share?

For the thinking about among us - how's it going for you? What are your worries or fears? What is good for you right now?

Distraction is good right now. I just started my first cycle so it will take awhile to see if the PCOS is still a problem or not. I just ordered a ridiculous number of OPT and PT strips, along with the microscope thingy, a new thermometer and some other gadget I can't remember right now.

I'm all geared up and I don't know if I even want to try. I'm thinking about adoption. Then I'm thinking about pregnancy. Then I'm thinking about adoption again.

Like I said, I need distraction.

I am thinking. And thinking. And thinking. At this point, I'm sensing that my thoughts are settling on "No. We are done." I have two living children. Who the hell am I to tempt fate once again? There's a thought that keeps gnawing at me, though. One of the insightful women on here (I think it was Christy) wrote such a lovely sentiment about getting pregnant again. She said that she loved her lost son so much that she was willing to go through all of the fears, stress and doubt again. If I decide to NOT go through it all again (or to not even try) what does say about me? Does that decision somehow dishonor my daughter?

I am so confused, but am trying to be patient and trust that an answer will come in time.

Hi ladies

I am saying this with great caution, but I found out this week that I am pregnant. So I guess my update is no longer a TTC update. Right now I just keep POAS to make sure I still keep getting a +ve result. I keep expecting something to go wrong and know that if things dont go wrong its going to be a very long and bumpy road ahead.

Like you SCM I also read that lovely insightful post about being willing to go through the fears and the stresses and doubt again. But just because you might decide that you dont want to doesnt say anything bad about you. You definately wouldnt be dishonouring your daughter. I know this journey is so different from one person to the next. We all start in the same place and all end at the same place, we are just travelling on different roads. I guess what i am trying to say is that only you will know when and if you want to have more children. I know for me I desperately want another child but I am so afraid of things going badly again. I'm afraid of losing another baby. I know there are know guarantees in life at all but I have to keep telling myself yes I know the risks are there, but they are small. And the chance of having a healthy live baby that I get to keep is far greater. Atleast thats what I am trying to convince myself anyway.

Well, I'm 19 weeks pregnant, I'm mostly tired, emotional, scared and basically just getting through every day. I wish I could write something more positive, but mostly it's a bloody hard slog.
Right now I'm feeling pretty abandoned by my care providers. My next scan appt is not until 24th March, my consultant appt is on 31st March, and my next midwife appt is on 22nd April.
I haven't seen anyone since my 16 week appt.
I know I can call my midwife any time for reassurance, but honestly there's not much she can really do at this stage.
I'll know more once I see the consultant, but because my last pregnancy was fine, as was the birth and no one knows why Florence became ill shortly after birth, there's not much that can be done differently this time.
Yoga is good for me, for an hour and a half each week I can relax and connect with my body and this baby (or try to) . I'm actually regaining some faith in my body just being in such a lovely positive class.
What surprises me? My bump! Sometimes I look down and think it's too small, and other times I look down and am shocked at the size. Sometimes this pregnancy feels like forever and sometimes it feels like it's going so fast.
Mostly I'm just desperate to hold this baby live in my arms, and at the same time missing Florence intensely and wishing I could hold her too.
x

Congratulations, Cindy! That is great, albeit terrifying, news.

As for me, I'm still waiting to ovulate. It seems, for now, as if the soy has helped things on, but I haven't ovulated yet. If things go as normally, it could still be 5-10 days away (sigh). But I feel optimistic it will be soon, as I can't imagine this ovarian pain could continue that long! So, just trying to enjoy sex and stay positive. Hope this cycle does it for us.

When I got my last period I had a melt down. I don't understand why I didn't get pregnant. A few days before getting my period I heard that a friend was diagnosed premenopausal and that not even IVF is an option for her. I am frustrated and scared. I know I have been trying for only 4 cycles and that I have to relax, but I can't. I am in NYC (where I used to live and where my baby was stillborn at 40 weeks) and met two friends who are pregnant. It is the first time I see them in 10 months and it hasn't been easy to be around them. I feel really down and I hate feeling this way. Sorry for the rambling...
This month there is no TTC for me because I am away from my husband, but I am buying preseed to get ready for next month. Trying to stay positive.

Oh, Francisca, what a terrible disappointment. Big hugs from me. I hope the Preseed helps you next month, and maybe this cycle will be a bit of a relief and rejuvenating mental break.

As for me, cd 19 and still no ovulation, but I did (literally! I just picked it up) get a positive opk today. Yay, smiley face!

We broke our record for # of days in a row with sex last night, lol. And will continue tonight and tomorrow. I don't know why exactly, but we both feel like things are well in that area at the moment, though usually we're both quite ready to be done with it and welcome a break. I can tell you that my ovaries are ready to explode though, so I will be quite relieved to finally ovulate. I definitely think the soy has made a real difference, as my normal ovulation day has been cd 23-26. This has brought it into normal ranges, which is great. Obviously, I hope very much that it results in pregnancy, but I feel like we have a good chance!