It's been 4 years. I still feel numb from losing my little girl. Still cant quite believe that happened. That we went through that, that she was here but now gone. I look at her little brother now and also feel numb, also can't believe that he's here and he's mine. It almost feels so temporary. Of course I love them both more than anything but is it normal to still feel this way? I read about all these women who have such strong maternal feelings and worry I should be the same by now.

Anna, I have no idea if it’s normal or not to feel numb…could it be a sort of natural defense mechanism against the horror of losing your girl? Maybe it’s just normal for you and it’s how you’re grieving and parenting and just getting through. My girl would have been 7 this week, her little brother is 5. I think I was numb through year one or so of little brothers life but I honestly can’t really remember. Anyway, thinking of you and sending you peace.

Much love to you Anna.
I stand behind AB’s words, and have found comfort and love in them myself for 7 years now.
I can only answer for myself, but I was numb on and off for at least 4 years after my little miss S died.