My heart aches for my 6,5 -year old. She’s a wise little girl. We were talking about a music video she saw, where someone got hurt and the others started laughing whereas she said that it wasn’t nice at all to do that. After that she said « It isn’t nice to laugh of someone hurting, not if they fall and hurt themselves or if their heart hurts. I know all about hurting hearts» My little girl misses here middle sister so bad that here heart hurts when she think of here. We do talk about little miss S, who would have been 4.5 years old now, quite often.
Today I took the girls to the cemetary, our heart became a little lighter.

Sometimes I don’t know what to do there and then. Last night when talking about hurting hearts, We both cried.

Thinking of you, Scandinavian endo-girl. My now 10 and 8 year old still long for the brother they didn't get to bring home. And not being able to fix that for them hurts my mama heart all the more. This sucks so bad for all of us. Hugs to you, mama.

It defenantly sucks,
This night she started crying again, saying she feels like a piece of here heart is gone. I wish I could make here pain go away, but I can’t.
She’s overly protective of our rainbow that’s 3,5 now, allways reassuring here little sister that she loves here. Giving hugs and kissess all the time.