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Parents of lost babies and potential of all kinds: come here to share the technicolour, the vividness, the despair, the heart-broken-open, the compassion we learn for others, having been through this mess — and see it reflected back at you, acknowledged and understood.

Thanks to photographer Xin Li and to artist Stephanie Sicore for their respective illustrations and photos.

parenting after loss > Good Mom????

Any other parents question and second guess on whether or not they are a good parent since the loss of your little ones?
I find that I tend to second guess myself and almost need reassurance that I am a good mom after we lost J. We have A and another on the way and with this little bean it is making me wonder yet again if I am a good parent.
This probably stems from my questioning why I had to loose J and what I did wrong?
Is this just a me and low self esteem and doubt or do other parents have this issue as well?
April 13, 2018 | Unregistered CommenterTsukia
Yes! I doubt myself...I’m extremely protective of my rainbow son (maybe sometimes too much—see!) but I’ve been trying to be gentle with myself because he is healthy and thriving and I’m doing the best I can under the circumstances. As he grows, I find myself missing his big sister more and I think that contributes to the self doubt...I have no way of knowing what, if anything, I’m doing differently:better/worse with him than I would have with her...Anyway, hugs Tsukia, be gentle with yourself on this too!
April 18, 2018 | Unregistered CommenterAB
Hi Tsukia

So sorry for your loss.
You are definitely not alone... I think that all moms second guess themselves especially after you have experienced the loss of a child. Remember to focus on your accomplishments and don't only see the 'failures' your kids love you regardless...
April 18, 2018 | Unregistered CommenterRachelle
I just lost my son 3/30/18. He was 5 weeks old and passed as we slept. All I do is think of what if and I blame myself. He was my 1st and only and although, I want that feeling back. I'm extremely afraid, am I a good enough mom? Will this happen again? I hate those thoughts but I think them. All the time. It's frightening and I hope I can pass this moment of grief.
May 13, 2018 | Unregistered CommenterShanquay Jones