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Parents of lost babies and potential of all kinds: come here to share the technicolour, the vividness, the despair, the heart-broken-open, the compassion we learn for others, having been through this mess — and see it reflected back at you, acknowledged and understood.

Thanks to photographer Xin Li and to artist Stephanie Sicore for their respective illustrations and photos.

parenting after loss > Sister

After living in one place for 9 years (a record for me by 5 years!) we moved shortly after our rainbow arrived. We finally just put some pictures up. My husband was showing our (almost 1 year old) rainbow the various pictures and she grabbed Mira's picture and before he said anything she said, "dis-der/sister". I thought I imagined it but my husband heard it too. My inlaws live upstairs and they do show her her "sister's" picture, but it is a different picture.

My 3 sisters are all pregnant or have newborns. I love my sisters. It breaks my heart that my rainbow is missing the experience of sistering Mira in life.
May 13, 2016 | Unregistered CommenterKO
Oh KO, how heart-warming that your rainbow recognised her sister's picture.....and so heart breaking that she doesn't get the chance to sister her on Earth. I'm so sorry.

We have a LC (girl) who is 6 and we lost her sister 4 years ago. We've since had 2 rainbow boys (and feel so lucky to have been able to have them) but my heart does ache for the sister my living daughter will never know, will never play babies with, will never have tea parties with or create memories with.

It sucks KO. I'm sorry x
May 14, 2016 | Unregistered CommenterShelby's Mum
Ko, this is so heartbreaking. I know. My son, now 6, lost his sister when he was just three. He still speaks of her a lot and says he wishes she didn't leave. We don't have any more kids and I doubt we ever will. It's just so unfair to their little hearts. They are so very attentive, even from that tender age. Thinking of you and your little rainbow especially today. Remembering Mira with you all.
May 16, 2016 | Unregistered CommenterJo-Anne
Oh KO, that must have been hard. I hope it will get easier with time.
I found it hard to have Katie and Sam went near Henry's photos for s long time.
Even harder when they started to ask questions. But I think it would feel a lot worse
If lost siblings weren't included or remembered.
Well done KO, you are enabling your daughter to acknowledge her own loss in a way.
And giving her security that she can have that communication with you, I am sure it will mean a great deal to her in years to come.
Sending you peace x
June 7, 2016 | Unregistered CommenterSally
Oh, it both melt and brake my heart all at once.

It's so hard for the little once that's left.
Our eldest had just turned two when little miss S died, it will be two years early fall, and now for half a year she's been asking a lot of questions daily. She says she's sad, really sad that she died.

Thinking of Mira
June 18, 2016 | Unregistered CommenterScandinavian endo-girl
Hi KO, So sad, and so sweet. My 9 y/o daughter still hopes that she'll have a little sister someday, though I don't really think it's going to happen. She had ideas about how she'd do her hair and nails and all those big sister things... These losses have so many dimensions... We also moved after 13 years in one house when our rainbow was just a baby. Thinking of you and sending hugs.
August 11, 2016 | Unregistered CommenterHannah