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Parents of lost babies and potential of all kinds: come here to share the technicolour, the vividness, the despair, the heart-broken-open, the compassion we learn for others, having been through this mess — and see it reflected back at you, acknowledged and understood.

Thanks to photographer Xin Li and to artist Stephanie Sicore for their respective illustrations and photos.

parenting after loss > The First 10 days

Eliana is 10 days old, and it feels like the world us spinning out of control. She is amazing, nurses like a champ, sleeps well, settles quickly. Everything Rosabella and I struggled with she just takes in stride. However everything else is crazy. My DH's father was in the hospital the week before Eliana was born, his prostate cancer had spread to his liver and he was sent home on hospice. DH made plans to fly out to see him with Rosabella when Eliana was 10 days old. I was worried about the trip, being alone for 3 days with such a new baby, being away from Rosabella for so long. Then my DH decides to climb on the roof without a ladder on Monday and falls and breaks his arm and 2 ribs. He had surgery yesterday, but he cannot help with either of the girls and I have to take care of him as well. Then last night my FIL dies, so even without the accident he would not have been able to see him again. My Dad came up yesterday to help, but he has to leave tomorrow. Some friends have been contacted for help and a few are coming by this weekend to help, but I am exhausted and stressed and starting to feel more than a little out
March 13, 2015 | Unregistered CommenterGrace's Mom
Of control.
March 13, 2015 | Unregistered CommenterGrace's Mom
Oh, no! This is terrible. I'm so sorry. I hope you get the help you need. This seriously, seriously sucks and you must be just exhausted - YOU are the one that needs taking care of right now. I wish there was something more comforting to say. I'm sorry about your father-in-law. Hang in there, Amanda. Sending a big hug from far away.
March 13, 2015 | Unregistered CommenterJLD
I am so sorry. That is so much to deal with for your family. I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers to you and your family.
March 14, 2015 | Unregistered CommenterMargaret
Oh Grace's mom - shitballs is the only word... I'm so sorry about the loss of your FIL - and your husband's accident too!!! FFS!
Is it too much to expect, after everything that we go through as baby loss parents, that youcan have a little bit of peace and a breather to try to enjoy the rainbow that has been lucky enough to come your way.
Wishing you some peace in the trying days and weeks ahead. Stay strong. xxx
March 14, 2015 | Unregistered CommenterDavid's mum
Man I wish I could drop off some lasagna for you I would even take rosabella off your hands for an hour or two!! I am so thankful to hear things with eliana are going so well, but crap you are in a brutal position taking care of three now. I'm so sorry to hear about your FIL. Terrible news on top of just trying to get through your days right now I would imagine. I hope some more friends and family pull through for you. I will be thinking of you.
March 16, 2015 | Unregistered CommenterJessica
Oh no graces mom! It doesn't ever just rain. Hoping things level out soon and wishing your dh a speedy recovery. So sorry about his father too 😞.
March 16, 2015 | Unregistered CommenterColette
Grace's mom.. I'm so sorry that you are going through so much in such a short time frame! Yipes!

I hope that your friends are able to provide you with much needed assistance.
Sending love, strength and happy congrats that Eliana arrived safely !!
March 19, 2015 | Unregistered Commentersme
S&^t just keeps hitting the fan. DH has been in bed for days with narcotic induced nausea. Last night I had to call 911 because it was uncontrollable and he was shaking and having chest pains. The hospital released him after a few hours. We were at the surgeon this am, and he had to lay on the floor the entire time to keep from vomiting. Now I find out that that they may need to fuse his wrist if this surgery does not result in good function. He also cannot take anything other than OTC pain medications for his wrist due to the nausea. I have exhausted all help from friends and family and am now looking to hire someone to help out. I am so tired and overwhelmed and just cannot believe that this is all happening to us. Things have to get better soon right?
March 20, 2015 | Unregistered CommenterGrace's Mom