I was afraid of weaning M--afraid that my milk drying up would bring up traumatic memories, physical memories even, of my milk drying up after Joseph died. I was afraid of being transported back to that horrible pain of engorgement. I didn't think I could face having to use cabbage leaves or ice packs or drink sage tea again.

But it wasn't as bad as I'd feared. M last nursed on Friday and there was only one real day of discomfort. A few of gentle soreness. I am so, so relieved.

Anyway, most people don't understand. It's not something I've talked about with our other mom friends.

I'm so glad that it wasn't traumatic for you, Burning Eye. I can't say I relate to that specific thing in particular, but I definitely understand the concept. I hope that the weaning continues to be relatively pain free. I can't believe M is old enough to be weaning... it feels like it was just yesterday that we were all waiting for our kids to arrive.

Burning Eye, I'm glad to hear that you nursed for this long. It's good to know that the weaning wasn't as bad as you thought. I understand how it can bring up memories. Cecilia is weaning herself. She doesn't want anymore breast during the day, she'll only take it during the night, so my milk is almost gone. And that is what's making me think of Sara. This milk has been flowing since I was 30 weeks pregnant with Sara. So, somehow, it makes me feel closer to her.
Well, it's been over ten days since you wrote this, so I hope you are both doing fine. Is she one year old already? It really was fast, like Carrie said. I'm sure we're all exhausted, but it seems like just the other day we were sharing our fears on the pregnancy thread.