I posted on "for one and all" the other day and I guess I didn't realize that there was also a section for "Parenting After Loss". The last time I was on Glow was a while ago before we had our Rainbow. I am really grateful that this is here!

I also posted this on "for one and for all" but I've realized that a few Mama's from right after Lila died are posting here. I know it is shitty that we are in this boat, but I have to say, it felt good to see people that somehow feel like old friends. Does that sound crazy?

Today is my baby girls birth and death Anniversary. She was stillborn 2 years ago at 27 weeks and I have missed her every second of every day.

I am a very private person and my husband is as well. We didn't remind anyone of Lila's Anniversary and it is extremely sad how most people have forgotten. I ask you to please think of her today and maybe you could sing her "Happy Birthday". It would be nice for more than just her Dad and me to remember that she existed, she is loved more than anything and she changed our lives.

I think the reason I am so private now is because she is so precious to me and I couldn't bear for anyone to say or do anything hurtful. I guess I don't give people the benefit of the doubt anymore, but as we know... some people have some terrible reactions to our losses. I just can't bear that anymore, so I pretty much keep to myself.

Please think of Lila today. She was beautiful and strong. She held on for as long as she could during an extremely tough pregnancy. I miss her and love her more than I ever though imaginable.

Happy Birthday, my baby girl. Mommy loves you always.

Happy birthday Lila. What a lovely name.

Happy (belated) birthday, dear Lila! We all know just how important and loved and missed you are...

I just saw this, and wanted to wish Lila a happy belated birthday. It's a beautiful name...

Thinking of your Lila. Xo