It is Christmas eve and Rosabella is asleep. She does not understand Christmas yet. Grace would be starting to get the idea this year. I miss her so much tonight. We put her new 2013 ornament on the tree and took some pictures. Yesterday we donated books and toys to the children's hospital in her name and the went to the rose garden. Rosabella was with us. I hope that we can continue these traditions so that she can "know" her sister.

Grace my darling I will love you forever, I will like you for always, as long as I'm living, my baby you'll be.

Grace's Mom, Just like you I miss my lost child. He would be starting to get it. I think Malak would be one month younger than Grace.
I love Robert Munsch's book (he's Canadian!), and so do my living children. It has brought them a lot of comfort in their own journey through grief and their fear of death of loved ones. i keep telling them that they are likely to be grown-ups and independent by the time we die. I so hope this is what will happen. I just want to be able to cuddle them for as long as I'm living. For always, forever, we miss you and love you.
Merry Christmas to our darlings.