Nikki,
I read your comments in the thread that Aurelia started on balancing joy and sadness. Because the thread is not new I wanted to respond to you here about you feeling like you're a shitty mom to Gabe. It really sounds to me like you're suffering from some PPD. This is nothing to be ashamed of and completely understandable especially in our cases. I have had it mildly with all my babies. WIth my first I was embarrassed about I but the more I've learned about it the more I know it's just hormonal and does nothing to reflect on me as a person. Please, Nikki, if you have not done so already, get counselling and/ or meds if needed. It will help you to enjoy this precious time with Gabe while grieving Charlotte.
Love, Em

For what it's worth I'm unsure Nikki checks Glow any longer. Can't say I blame her.

I hope that's not true, Annie, as I have really appreciated Nikki's voice around here the last two years or so. I'd noticed she was absent. I just read the other thread. It's one I hadn't been participating in so I'd not seen the discussion. Perhaps I will email her at some point if we don't see her around again. All the best to you and Em as well. :-)

Just wanted to say hello to Nikki, if she's reading this. I've really appreciated your voice and the care you've shown me. I get not being on Glow for various reasons at various times. I wanted to make sure you knew how much I'm thinking of you. Xo

oh shit I wasn't trying to open a can of worms just send out compassion to one who needs it. Haven't been on glow lately and felt for you Nikki. Glow is a refuge of coming and going...and my grief has brought me stumbling back

oh shit I wasn't trying to open a can of worms just send out compassion to one who needs it. Haven't been on glow lately and felt for you Nikki. Glow is a refuge of coming and going...and my grief has brought me stumbling back

Em - past comments seemed (in my opinion) rather harsh and some unkind towards Nikki. Not necessarily yours. It is what it is.

Wishing you all the best.