It's been a few months since I have checked in on Glow and even longer than that since I was here regularly. I just wanted to say how glad I am that this space was created for parenting after loss. In November it will be 2 years since we lost our daughter at term and now that it Fall is starting to creep in I feel the loss even more than usual. My son will be one in November also so it's really an intense time of year for us.
I am glad to see some familiar names here and I am thinking of the mamas without other children also.
I just want to say thank you for creating this section and for being here.

I do wish you could edit posts on Glow though! This spelling error will annoy me to no end! :)

Welcome back Florine, or not, I'm sorry you felt the need to be back here. Are you going back to work soon too? It all adds up. For me, it's the arrival of fall and "back to school" time that makes me miss my dear son more. 2 years is still so fresh I find, yet so long ago.
Celebrating your son's first birthday will be very emotional for sure, because few people IRL understand what goes on inside our heads as we reach these milestones.
Hope this fall will be gentle on your family...
Take care and hugs friom the other side of the ocean.

Thanks Karine. It's nice to hear from you! I will also being going back to work in November, so that's another part of it. I feel like I am living in the shadow of that giant month. Our daughter's birthday is the 4th and then our son's is on the 14th. Of course this year he will be too young to understand our sadness but I wonder how this will go as the years progress.
Yes, back to school is also hard, and it's my birthday and my husbands birthday next week and it's painful to celebrate anything without our daughter.
I think for people other than our immediate family 2 years is ancient history, but for me I really feel in the thick of grief at times.
I hope the season will be gentle on you as well and I will be thinking of you,