It’s been a tough year, my husband and I have been ttc for 2 years even longer now. This year I got pregnant and lost it at 8 weeks. It was a huge shock to my husband and I. I’ve been struggling mentally since I have major depression and Just want one thing, a child. I feel like a failure for it I’m 25 I should be able to do this. I should be able to create something. Now all I do is sleep every day and try to stay asleep so I don’t feel so depressed. I just give up. They say not to stress so much about it but I’m so headstrong about having a kid that I keep failing. I feel so lost. Plus the holidays are here my husband and I really thought I was pregnant but in the end my period showed up. Now I’m miserable. Plus I even sun my friends because they have a one year old and I’m just this barren girl who doesn’t get that joy.

Fertility, trying to conceive, and miscarriage are all so hard and each in different ways. 💛