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Parents of lost babies and potential of all kinds: come here to share the technicolour, the vividness, the despair, the heart-broken-open, the compassion we learn for others, having been through this mess — and see it reflected back at you, acknowledged and understood.

Thanks to photographer Xin Li and to artist Stephanie Sicore for their respective illustrations and photos.

not ttc | infertility after loss > Peace and thank you

So I’ve been mostly lurking here as I struggled with the decision to try for a 3rd child. I wanted to thank you all for the thoughtful discussions here that helped me decide that no, I wouldn’t. I’m so relieved and at peace with that.
This week, it’s been 5 years since my daughter was stillborn at 28 weeks following a complete, concealed, placental abruption. This was after two early losses, uterine surgery to remove a septum, and the diagnosis of a uterine anomaly. My subsequent pregnancy, of course a high risk one, was overall uneventful but very stressful. I delivered a healthy son who is now 3.5.

Since then, we’ve thought about another baby but honestly the thought of it made me so stressed (and my husband the same). And anticipating grief again was just too much. Then one of my sisters was diagnosed with severe endometriosis and is going through IVF (after two rounds of surgery...) and it’s just too much. I don’t want another baby, and that’s ok. I will always miss my daughter but I love my son and our family is complete.

So thank you for helping sort that out. Much peace and love all around.
June 15, 2019 | Unregistered CommenterAB
I loved reading this, AB. Peace and love to your family.
June 25, 2019 | Unregistered CommenterJack's mom