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Parents of lost babies and potential of all kinds: come here to share the technicolour, the vividness, the despair, the heart-broken-open, the compassion we learn for others, having been through this mess — and see it reflected back at you, acknowledged and understood.

Thanks to photographer Xin Li and to artist Stephanie Sicore for their respective illustrations and photos.

not ttc | infertility after loss > Is it wrong

Is it wrong that I don't want to even try for another baby. My heart can't take the worry & I just feel numb some days.
May 21, 2016 | Unregistered CommenterWandering
No, wandering, it's not wrong. It's instinct and self-protection. Right now, your heart needs a reprieve. The numbness is normal, and so is the hopelessness. The only thing to remember is that nothing is static. Everything is fluid. You won't feel this way forever. Everything will soften with time. When it does, you'll be able to progress forward in your life with clarity around what you want. Either way, you'll be able to make that decision from an empowered place, and not from a place of fear. You'll find your way. Love to you. xo
May 26, 2016 | Unregistered CommenterKate Inglis
Dear Wandering, No to answer your question, it's not wrong, it feels like it sometimes, I know, but it isn't. That is just your choice, your decision. I know the numbness, I have felt it to, like Kate says, it eases up over time. I have felt the worry too and also decided I personally couldn't go through another pregnancy worry stricken. Holding you in the light.
May 30, 2016 | Unregistered CommenterJo-Anne
Thank you both. I feel like the life I was SUPPOSED to have is gone & it's really day by day,minute by minute sometimes. Its so unfair to all of us that this happened to all of us. Hugs to you too.
June 4, 2016 | Unregistered CommenterWandering