It has been almost 3 weeks since loosing our sweet baby boy, Kennedy due to velamentous cord insertion. I was 30 weeks when we learned he no longer had a heartbeat, and we saw our new and unexpected future flash before our eyes. This was our second pregnancy, as we already lost our first in April due to a missed miscarriage. As we knew since the anatomy scan what was in front of us, baby Kennedy was being so resilient and growing big and healthy and thought worst case scenario he would come early, not sadly die. The grief comes and goes in waves as everyone said it would. It is definitely lonely, because I like many of us don’t personally know anyone who has gone through this. I am only surrounded by friends who have had successful and healthy pregnancies. They truly don’t know or can understand how deep the pain is and how gaping this grief is. I know this whole in my heart will be with me forever. I try my best to have hope, that we will still have a healthy pregnancy and a living child by the end 2025, as we are motivated to try again as soon as we can. I truly hope, I can come back to this forum and share a success story to help instill hope. I know that is what gets me through, is reading the hopeful stories of others. Until then, our hearts sit with sweet Kennedy and we will forever be playing “who would he be” game just like everyone else. I truly hope we are able to breathe and see color again, and we will have our success story, soon one day. As Kennedy will never be forgotten and if he blesses us and sends us an beautiful sibling, our love for him will continue to grow through them. I love you my sweet Kennedy, you will always be my favorite boy.

Kennedy Grey 12.11.2024