Our baby boy was born premature, 3 months ahead of time. He came the day after we set up the Xmas tree. My wife was so excited, we put his ultrasound photo as a ornament. I saw him come out of my wife, and I cried out of joy when he cried lying on my wife. He was in NICU for a few weeks when they found out he had an infection which ate up his small intestine. The hospital don't know how that happened and neither did they provide a proper directive throughout his development except that everything is great until all went down. He peacefully passed away while my wife and me held him in our arms, this Sunday. I don't know what I did wrong, for my son to go through this. He was such a beautiful boy. We removed the Xmas tree today and he's gone before that. I want to believe he was a Xmas angel who came to bless us. I feel so broken inside, I want to be a support for my wife, but I'm not strong enough myself. I'm having panic attacks at random places. It is tough. I hope no loving parent go through this excruciating pain.

A,

I’m so sorry for your loss, it’s heartbreaking what you and your wife is going trough. I’m thinking of all three of you ❤️
I hope you both have support and understanding friends and family.
I know parts of what you are going through, even if everyone’s grief is unike. Grief is hard, there will be ups and a lot of downs and some panic attacks along the road.
There will be better days ahead, I myself couldn’t see that either 13 years ago when we lost our first, or 9 years and 5 months ago when baby #3 said hi and good bye. I’m so thankful both for glow and the community here, and my support group of babyloss parents in my region 9 years ago.

If you’re up for it either now or down the road, I would recommend a grief counselling group for both of you. Try it, and if it doesn’t work at least you tried.

Hoping for brighter days down the road, sending love.