Hi- I come here often still, although I haven’t posted anything for some time. I lost my baby almost 7 years ago. I can hardly believe that it has been that long. My grief ebbs and flows now/ - sometimes it takes a front seat and sometimes it takes a back seat for months at a time. But often, when something comparatively small happens, and I feel a slight injustice in a part of my life that really pales in comparison to my loss, I become raging mad. Like I can’t believe the universe took my baby and now I have to contend with some other minor injustice. Something in my work life has recently set me off and I am so unbelievably angry about it…, and again angry about losing Luke. Does anyone else experience this? Like little injustice can set off a stream of rage? In many ways, I would imagine my loss would make me better at accepting more minor annoyances and frustrations- but I think it has done the opposite.

Thanks for reading

Xoxo

Abby

Yes Abby,
I too feel it sometimes, both with a small injustice or even a little things that never got to me beforehand. It causes both rage and sadness. Ending in me being mad at the world and everyone.
I’m in that kind of rage now, not being able to talk to this one person, she totally degraded my right to grieve.
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