Today she would be 10. Sarah would be 10. She would be moving from single to double digits. I see that I desperately want to say 'should be' instead of 'would be' and I notice the anger I still hold over the unfairness of it all. I am struck by how quickly I can move back into the pain of those days on her birthday anniversaries and other random days that blindside me throughout the year, but also by the days I am not present with her, that life has continued. All of it upsets me. Today, I placed flowers in the ocean to mark Sarah's birthday. Today I feel it all most acutely. Thank you for giving me space here to share her memory and these feelings.
Happy Birthday Sarah.
xo
Mom

Happy Birthday Sarah. Missing her with you today Julia. Hugs to you.

Happy birthday, Sarah who should be 10. Ten is a big birthday. I really felt the loss of the glee Anja's older sister felt when she hit 'double digits' - such a reminder of everything we all lost, everything our babies didn't get to experience. I'm remembering Sarah with you, Julia, and glad you have this space to come back to.

Happy birthday Sarah. Missing her with you Julia. Hugs and peace to you.

Happy belated double digits Sarah.
What a beautiful way to remember your girl by placing flowers in the ovean ❤️

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