am i a terrible person? i’m so jealous that my boyfriends supporting his friend with her pregnancy when i lost my baby girl not even a week ago. i had a feeling that they were talking or at least had been talking and now i’m just so upset knowing it’s true. is it wrong for me to be upset about it? i feel so disgusting for not being able to support my baby and what if he thinks the same? what if he leaves me for her because she can support her own baby.
it hurts even more knowing that he knows i blame myself for everything- does he realize that this hurts for me? does he even realize there’s a connection between me and her? i’m so jealous of her
i’m so jealous

That’s sounds pretty normal to me e.l. You’re not a terrible person. Sending you peace.

You are not terrible, you are normal. At least that's what everyone keeps telling my. I've suffered 6 unexplained miscarriages and now my sister-in-law is pregnant I'm having SUCH a hard time with it. I am so ANGRY, jealous and bitter. As badly as I want to be able to feel happy for her, my brain just keeps coming up with different reasons to be judgy and angry. It all comes down to the fact that I am still so so so sad about all of my losses, what I seemingly don't get to have and she does - and with such ease. I have all of those feelings too - and they're normal. I would suggest maybe having a very open talk with your BF about his involvement with his friend's pregnancy and how that makes you feel. You were going to be a team to raise a child together, you need to continue to be a team now too. If you need a certain type of support from him, ask for it. He honestly may not know how you are feeling. I do understand your pain. I feel it too. We'll both get through it.