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Parents of lost babies and potential of all kinds: come here to share the technicolour, the vividness, the despair, the heart-broken-open, the compassion we learn for others, having been through this mess — and see it reflected back at you, acknowledged and understood.

Thanks to photographer Xin Li and to artist Stephanie Sicore for their respective illustrations and photos.

for one and all > I wanna die already

My baby boy was 10 months old when he passed away, he was murdered and when i had him in the hospital he passed away in my arms i saw his soul fly out out of his body and his body was ice cold when i was hoilding him and gave him his last kiss, he passed away on Thanksgiving and i been super depressed and suicidal every day, im getting weaker and weaker everyday. i cant live and cope with this, anymore i been losing my mind every day he was my only happiness and gave me a reason to live but noiw that hes gone i camt deal with this pain i been going thru, i want my son back i miss my son so much , why did this have to happen to my son i have no purpose to live anymore i think i should just die already
December 7, 2021 | Unregistered CommenterL
L, I'm so sorry! This is awful. I have no words to say, I want to send strength to help you deal with and grieve your son. Do you have supportive people around you?
December 7, 2021 | Unregistered CommenterD
Dear L. You are not alone. We are here for you. If you would like to connect directly, please let me know and I'll send you my email or you can give me yours and I will contact you. Sending you strength and comfort. Meg
December 13, 2021 | Unregistered CommenterMeg
Dear L,

Do you have anyone that can come and be with you? I am so so sorry for your loss, there will never be words to make this ok. We are with you , you are most definitely not alone. Please know I am thinking about you and sending you a hug .
December 13, 2021 | Unregistered CommenterJax
Please L. and anyone else who is having thoughts of suicide, call the National Crisis Hotline at 800-273-8255. There are trained counselors who are able to talk to you at any time of day and direct you to more resources than we are able to provide on this site. Please also reach out to our email at glowinthewoods2016@gmail.com or comment back here to let us know that you are ok. Sending you and your baby boy love and care.
December 13, 2021 | Unregistered CommenterEmma
In addition to what Emma has posted, a list of links to international crisis hotlines is available here: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/basics/suicide/suicide-prevention-hotlines-resources-worldwide
December 15, 2021 | Unregistered CommenterJen (GITW)
L, are you still here? I'm so sorry for your terrible loss!
March 2, 2022 | Unregistered CommenterArav's Mom