We went to visit you today. I felt that we are all together, a family. I was so looking forward to you joining the family. We hugged next to your grave, I felt you close. But you should've been in the family hug, in person.

I have a heavy heart today. I miss you terribly. I'm so sorry and sad that you're not here. I want to go back to so many moments when you were alive. Inside and out. Inside- when you were moving and lively, kicking and wiggling. Out in the world-just holding you. Touching you. Kissing you. Looking at you.

I send a big hug to you and your family. And I offer up my pain for you with lots of prayers.

Dear D,
I hear you. I see you.

I tear up reading your words because they could be mine.