I lost my son at twenty four weeks on December 11,2020.
After hoping to get a beautiful live baby boy he ended up being born sleeping.
I struggled with post partum depression and post partum anxiety.
I tried Medication after medication nothing seemed to be helping.
I tried writing listening to music nothing would ease the pain of my baby boy.
I thought I could do it alone but then I ended up needing someone.
I thought I would be okay but honestly I'm not okay.
My mind wanted drugs but my heart said no.
My mind wanted alcohol but my heart said no.
My mind wanted cigarettes but my heart said no.
I was strong enough to walk away from these things.
One thing I came to realize you are strong ,and you are a overcomer.

Dear Macey,

I am so sorry for your loss, how incredibly heart breaking. My son Peter, was born asleep on December 7th, at 35 weeks. It feels so unfair doesn’t it? To see others getting the one thing you wanted most. I just got back from visiting my son’s grave, only to come home to an invitation to a friend’s baby shower, the stark contrast was not lost on me. I just wanted to say how sorry I am that you lost your baby boy, and that you are not alone in your grief, we will carry our love and pain for these babes all the days of our life. Keeping you in my prayers,

Rachel