Parents of lost babies and potential of all kinds: come here to share the technicolour, the vividness, the despair, the heart-broken-open, the compassion we learn for others, having been through this mess — and see it reflected back at you, acknowledged and understood.
Thanks to photographer Xin Li and to artist Stephanie Sicore for their respective illustrations and photos.
Move on… moving from what? Look for a different direction... turn the other cheek... which way both are just as painful. Each way has a happy story that I just feel dismay… I must stay strong. Strong for myself, strong for my spouse. Everything is fine. everything all works out... ya right What is fine… my daughter is gone... my second never had a chance What does my husband see? unhappiness... is he right? How to be happy... happy ... happy Smile, get up, work... go home What’s my story... our story... Where am I going with this? I am lost I am sad I am angry I stare at my words all just leaves a blank.. What is NEXT Oh I’m crying Stop crying be strong What do people expect of me? except everything why do I have to move on.. cant I just stay here what is here.. its dark.. all I remember is that day.. that night.. the in and out at the hospital.. why couldn’t she just be able to stay! Why couldn’t our second child have a chance. Why does the good get taken away from us.. Everything isn’t all gone.. I have my husband .. my family.. Just all turned upside down.. So why be sad.. be happy.. smile, get up, work, go home Smile..Smile.. Smile..smile..smile..smile… I got to be happy for others when I am not happy with myself. Note to self.. nothing stays good around you for long.. you have said this time and time again yet you still try to see hope WHY???????????????????????????????????????????????????????? Everything leaves you after a while … you have seen it time after time Just accept and move on
Look for a different direction... turn the other cheek... which way both are just as painful.
Each way has a happy story that I just feel dismay…
I must stay strong.
Strong for myself, strong for my spouse.
Everything is fine. everything all works out... ya right
What is fine… my daughter is gone... my second never had a chance
What does my husband see? unhappiness... is he right?
How to be happy... happy ... happy
Smile, get up, work... go home
What’s my story... our story...
Where am I going with this?
I am lost
I am sad
I am angry
I stare at my words all just leaves a blank..
What is NEXT
Oh I’m crying
Stop crying be strong
What do people expect of me?
except everything
why do I have to move on.. cant I just stay here
what is here.. its dark.. all I remember is that day.. that night.. the in and out at the hospital..
why couldn’t she just be able to stay!
Why couldn’t our second child have a chance.
Why does the good get taken away from us..
Everything isn’t all gone.. I have my husband .. my family..
Just all turned upside down..
So why be sad.. be happy.. smile, get up, work, go home
Smile..Smile.. Smile..smile..smile..smile…
I got to be happy for others when I am not happy with myself.
Note to self.. nothing stays good around you for long.. you have said this time and time again yet you still try to see hope
WHY????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Everything leaves you after a while … you have seen it time after time
Just accept and move on