Move on… moving from what?
Look for a different direction... turn the other cheek... which way both are just as painful.
Each way has a happy story that I just feel dismay…
I must stay strong.
Strong for myself, strong for my spouse.
Everything is fine. everything all works out... ya right
What is fine… my daughter is gone... my second never had a chance
What does my husband see? unhappiness... is he right?
How to be happy... happy ... happy
Smile, get up, work... go home
What’s my story... our story...
Where am I going with this?
I am lost
I am sad
I am angry
I stare at my words all just leaves a blank..
What is NEXT
Oh I’m crying
Stop crying be strong
What do people expect of me?
except everything
why do I have to move on.. cant I just stay here
what is here.. its dark.. all I remember is that day.. that night.. the in and out at the hospital..
why couldn’t she just be able to stay!
Why couldn’t our second child have a chance.
Why does the good get taken away from us..
Everything isn’t all gone.. I have my husband .. my family..
Just all turned upside down..
So why be sad.. be happy.. smile, get up, work, go home
Smile..Smile.. Smile..smile..smile..smile…
I got to be happy for others when I am not happy with myself.
Note to self.. nothing stays good around you for long.. you have said this time and time again yet you still try to see hope
WHY????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Everything leaves you after a while … you have seen it time after time
Just accept and move on

Dear Christina,

I hear your pain and understand. You don't have to smile tho, this shit is really hard. Just be real and let life do its thing. Hang in there!