Today is 7 years ago since you passed away. I worked on your birthday ...5 days ago...you lived for 5 days....I love you, I miss you, I often wonder what you would have been like, who you would have been like, whether your personality would have been like your younger brothers or whether you would have been the one to keep them calm...I love you always...the family will always be incomplete because physically you are not here. I accepted long ago that there is nothing I can do, nothing that would bring you back and each year I accept a piece of me died on 9th December 2013 and for every 9th December since. I'm half way through another pregnancy and whilst I am excited about this new sibling of you I still miss you desperately. You taught me real love, changed who I was, changed my understanding of the world...I need to hear your name today so I am saying your name in a safe space ....this space...this place ...I love you, I miss you always

Saying Ameera's beautiful name in Vancouver, Canada this morning. I'm glad you feel safe in this space to share your love and I hope it brings some peace.

Thank you Jen. It did bring me a great deal of peace.

This post is so beautiful. You echo my feelings exactly with the loss of my sweet Macklin. I screamed his name into the mountains the other day and my voice was so weak, no scream could say his name loud enough.
He is my first born and taught me true deep love that reverberated throughout my life. I never knew how badly I wanted to be a mommy until I had him!!
Happy birthday beautiful ameera! You are so loved!