1 out of 3 survied. I see him grow everyday learning new things and i go back to thinking what if ... what if i had all three not just 1 out 3 . My babies would of all grown up close in age. Some days are harder then others especially when everyone around you is expecting and you're just there stopped in time but times keeps going... when your heart is not whole its still missing the other 2 ...

I think that now and then. I picture them together. I imagine how they would play together. I go to the store and see the woman who has the number of children I do but hers are (presumably) all still alive. It's difficult. There are many mothers on glow with out any living children which is why we have the "parenting after loss" section which I feel is visited even less than the main forum but thank god there is somewhere for any of us. I'm almost six years out and struggle.