6 years ago yesterday we buried our baby boy. Today, as if it were only yesterday, I remember it so well.
I remember the pain of that day, and remember too, the shock of the day after... after the busy focus of his funeral faded, suddenly a wide ocean of living forever without him unfurled...
Today somehow I'm feeling that same pain, that same struggle of wondering how this can be, how can I continue to live without him. Wondering too how to face Christmas - which in many ways we were forgiven for not being part of back then - when my heart feels so heavy...

Reconnecting with glow, a place I know you'll understand... a place that I'm sorry to see so many have found, with new loss, since I was last here... thanks for reading x

Dear Z's mum,

I hear you. Yesterday was my daughter's fifth birthday. Tomorrow is her death anniversary. Five years and I'm still so heartbroken. When the grief comes in full force, it still knocks me off my feet. I have no wisdom to share, just to let you know I'm with you, I hear you, and I'll be thinking of Z and his heartbroken mum on Xmas day.
Much love
Gaby

Z's mum
Lots of love to you. I remember you for when I first came to glow a little over 5 years ago.
I know those hard days, the days that it feels like it was yesterday they died.
I'm here beside you dear.

Scandinavian endo-girl

Hi Z's mum. A belated reply to say that I hope Christmas was okay for you and yours. I remember you and Z from all those years ago. Soon it will be 8 years since our Anja died. I found her sixth birthday to be very hard. 6 is somehow a special age. I suppose they all are. And all the birthdays for our gone babies are hard in their own ways. It's New Years Eve as I write this. Sending out some gentle, loving vibes to those who need them at the end of what for many of us, I know, was a long, long year. Z is never forgotten. I remain forever grateful for this space where we can return when we need to, to remember, to connect, to love and carry on.

Dear Z's mum,
I. Sorry for your loss. My husband and I feel your pain. We buried our baby boy Luke on November 25th this year. Tomorrow for new years day, as we did on Christmas day, we are going to the cemetery. This pain is unbearable. Coming on here has shown us that we are not alone, and we wish everyday to be the last to feel this pain.
I wish you a sense of relief from this pain and if sharing gives you that relief I'm sure everyone will agree, keep writing.
Much love to you.

Still here five and a half years later with out our beautiful boy physically here with us. My brother in law gave us a weird x-mas gift, it was a picture of us on a puzzle. We set it. I thought "the puzzle is complete: my family can never be complete." I am trying to believe in a heaven. I wish so much I could be with my baby boy again.