Today is the second birthday of my sweet daughter Alicia. We will be decorating her grave and are having cake in her honour. Every time I hold her little rainbow brother tears start to drop from my face. The only thought that saved me from going mad last night was that someday even my life with all it’s pains will come to an end. The unlived life of Alicia is peeking through the layers of everyday life, seeing other little girls always hurts a little. But what am I complaining, the girl is the one who lost her life. All I am thinking is I wish it was different, I wish it wasn’t me, it wasn’t us going through this hell.

I ma so so sorry for your loss... In a month's time it will be a year since our twin girls were born prematurely and got their wings a couple of weeks later... I so wish none of us had to go through the loss of a child.. hold your rainbow boy really tight... sending you strength

Jana, just wanted to say I'm thinking of you and Alicia on her second birthday. It is not fair that she is not here to celebrate, and that you as her mother must find ways of honoring her without her here to snuggle. I love your idea to decorate her grave and have cake. <3

Happy belated birthday, Alicia. I'm so sorry she wasn't there with you, Jana - it is so unfair. My nephew is six weeks younger than my son should be (2.5 now) and every time he hits a new milestone or does something new, my heart hurts a little. I've also had the feeling of just being so sad for my son that he is missing out on all the love and fun and life that was waiting for him, but you get to be really sad and miss her too. xx

Happy Birthday, Alicia. Love to you and your family, Jana.