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Parents of lost babies and potential of all kinds: come here to share the technicolour, the vividness, the despair, the heart-broken-open, the compassion we learn for others, having been through this mess — and see it reflected back at you, acknowledged and understood.
Thanks to photographer Xin Li and to artist Stephanie Sicore for their respective illustrations and photos.
Wouldn't it be amazing if I woke up early tomorrow morning and felt loved. Really felt loved - no fake smiling or nodding - but really felt it. Wouldn't it be amazing if tomorrow the doctors call me & tell me I'm pregnant. And it's her again - her little soul has come back to me - and this time she'll be healthy - she'll live. ....in reality - it will be amazing if I get outside tomorrow.
It's hasn't even been a year. Mother's day isn't even here yet. Where will find the strength to get thru it all? I am already empty.