Today is my baby's due date. September 10th, the same day my husband and I had our first date 11 years ago. Charlotte was our perfect little girl, with the most perfect due date. But she was stillborn on June 6th when I was 26 weeks pregnant. Our world was shattered and I still cannot believe we lost our little girl.

My husband has been absolutely amazing from the day we went into the hospital. I'm not sure I could have stayed sane if it weren't for him. He wants me to be happy, but it's just so much harder to enjoy things these days. Especially stuff that I thought I would be missing because of the baby.

I cannot stop myself from starring at pregnant women. I am just so envious of what they have. My sister-in-law was due Wed, two days before me. I am truly excited for them, but really dread when my nephew is born. I know I will have a strange infatuation for him. We'll see how that goes.

I just needed to share today and talk about Charlotte. For the longest time, the hardest thing for me to do was to just say her name. I love her name and want to talk about her when I can. I plan to work on her keepsake/memory box today. I want to get that together. And we'll take flowers to her gravesite later today. I know I'll be a mess, but want to spend time with her.

I'm so sorry Charlotte isn't with you. What a beautiful name for a beautiful girl. Sending you much love and thinking of Charlotte with you.

Susan,
My heart goes out to you today. I understand how you feel about not being able to talk about her for a long time, but wanting and needing to do so.
I'm like that with the baby I miscarried. Some days the memories, hopes, words come easily, and others are just the opposite. Years later, there are still songs I cannot listen to--but at the same time, I want to honor my child's memory, not pretend my baby's soul never existed.
I think the memory box and visit will be both painful and healing for you today.....but feel it, truly allow yourself to embrace her presence and the accompanying emotions that you need to process, especially today.
Hugs,
P

Susan,
I am so sorry it turned out this way. I know how you feel. We lost our precious daugther, too, and life will never be the same. Know that others are thinking of you today, and sending love, peace, and strength.

Susan, I am so sorry about your sweet Charlotte. I know how you feel, everything about the pregnancy where I lost my son was perfect.....he was a boy, would be three years apart from our living son, he was due on my sister's birthday....everything we wanted. And then it all went to hell, one day after our eighth wedding anniversary. I'm so sorry that you are having to deal with all this, and we are here anytime that you need to talk about your precious girl. Thinking of you. xoxoxo

I'm so sorry. My heart breaks for you and your husband. Charlotte's due date falling on the anniversary of your first date has such a 'written in the stars' quality about it. How terribly sad that you didn't welcome your little girl into the world on such a meaningful date for your family.

Thinking of you today as you remember your daughter, Charlotte. I hope you find some peace as you work on her memory box and visit her gravesite. xo

Susan, I'm thinking of you and Charlotte today. I'm so sorry that September is not what it should be, and that you're grieving your daughter instead of welcoming her into your home. It's all so very wrong.

My daughter, Pearl, was stillborn on June 5th (at 36 weeks), so I'm also just over three months into this new world. It's hard. But I'm glad you're here and talking about your daughter. Her name is so beautiful. I hope working on her memory box helps bring you some peace today.

Thanks everyone, for the support and kind words. My husband and I did make it to the cemetary after he got off work Friday. That was the hardest moment of the day. Us standing there, alone with her. It was so hard for both of us. I'm just glad that we can visit with her on a regular basis. I try to go each week after church.

No, my nephew has not been born yet. Stubborn little guy is holding on to his mommy tight. He is now 8 days past his due date. They are going to induce her tonight. So we hope he arrives tomorrow. We'll be glad to visit him. I just know I'm going to lose it and cry my eys out when I get to see and hold him. But my brother & sister in law have been really great with us. So I know they will totally understand. The whole family has been very supportive.

I am so sorry for your loss. My sister and I were both pregnant at the same time and her son was Born Oct 30th 2009, and our Camila was born sleeping Nov 30th 2009 exactly a month apart. Everytime I see my nephew it reminds me of her and there are times were I really want to have him around and ask I my sister if I can watch him. But I have to be honest there are times that it hurts so much to see him because of the constant reminder or our little one. I am very happy that he is here and I can see him grow but sometimes it does feel bitter sweet. And well as much as we love our nephew, that's just not our baby I find it very tough sometimes.