Well, I made it. I must admit, I have been so focused on reaching this day, and getting through it, that I haven't really thought any farther than that.

No sleep for me last night. I was awake until 6am, slept fitfully, and was up again a few hours later. So tired now, and my schedule is completely thrown off, but what do I care? On this day of all days, I'll do whatever the hell I want. I should have a baby on my hip. I should be having a party, and everyone invited. But all I have is a memory and a dream.

This is not at all what I thought I was going to say.

I was going to say: I hope you will remember my Noah with me today. He was born and died one year ago. I wish he could have seen the stars, on the night he was born. I wish he could have felt, even for a moment, the cool air on his brand-new baby skin. I really think, had he lived, he would have loved being outside as much as I do. So today, or tonight, or the next time you step out your door, I hope you will take a deep breath, and fill up your miraculous, working lungs with fresh air. And if, in doing so, you happen to remember my son, called Noah, who never breathed the air, but whom I love.... Well. That would mean the world to me.

--vera kate

Vera Kate - What you said is beautiful and I'll remember Noah when I step outside into the beautiful sunny day we have here today.

I'm so sorry you're not having a party with a baby on your hip.

I hope the coming days are gentle for you.

Maddie x

I'm sorry Noah isn't here with you, where he belongs. I will remember him with you and wish he was here. Sending you much love.

I will remember Noah when I feel the breeze. Take care.

Listening to the crickets chirp and thinking of your son.

Beautifully said, Vera Kate. I'm crying for you and your sweet little Noah, and I'll be thinking of you both when I cop a face full of strong cold wind today and I breath it in. Wishing you support today and on all the hard days ahead.

Thought of you and wept for you. Such lovely words.

Vera Kate,

I'm so sorry Noah is not on your hip. It is not right, I will think of him today as I walk outdoors. You are doing just fine. You should be so proud of every little thing that you do. Your son is so special, and so are you. Tomorrow will be one year and 1 month for me. I don't miss Anna any less, but compared to one year ago, I am in a much better place. This is definitely not the life I ordered, though.

Vera Kate, I will remember Noah... and I will think of you. Your words helped to remind me that, no matter how hard and sad our plights have been, there is a beauty in life... and breathing in the air is a part of that.

We will remember him with you. Thinking of you today xoxo

Thank you, all of you.
It really means so much to be remembered. <3