I am missing my little girl, Brianna Tatum. She was my first pregnancy and child. I was so excited to finally be pregnant after 2 years of trying. Then, the horror began. She was born and died on August 9, 2010 at 25 weeks and 2 days. I had a difficult pregnancy from week 18 on. I thought by getting to 24 weeks, the magic number for a "viable" baby, things would start to go right. But I was wrong. Even though, or maybe because, I was in the hospital on bed rest, things did not turn out the way they should have. Chorioamnionitis is a horrible thing and it stole my baby from me. And now I'm left as a mother with no child. I have to wake up every day to that knowledge. I go to bed every night, crying for what could have been. She will always be the perfect baby that I will always miss. I love you Brianna and I miss you every moment of every day.

I'm sorry for your loss, Amanda. I'm sad you had to find us, but I'm glad you did. Brianna is a beautiful name. I'm sorry your sweet girl isn't here with you. My first born, Charlotte, died May 14th. The first days are very hard. The shock wears off and you are staring down a life without your child. It feels very overwhelming, but we're here to help you through.

I have found refuge in this site and the people who comment here. Another wonderful site is Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope. (http://www.facesofloss.com/) Please, when you're ready, stop by and tell your story.

Thinking of you and Brianna today.

I'm so sorry your sweet Brianna isn't here with you. The early days and weeks are very hard. Just do whatever you need to in order to get through them.

Some of us have blogs (click on our names and you'll see the links to them) - I spent hours reading others blogs and here. It stopped me feeling so alone. I'd never understood 'grief is lonely' until Matilda died but it is.

We're here with you.

Maddie x

Amanda, I'm so sorry Brianna isn't with you. You've found a community who understands what it is you're going through. I can say that 5 months out it gets easier even if it still aches.

Wishing you peace.
xo
Sarah

I am so sorry. I lost my son in April when he was 11 days old and I can only tell you that there will be days when you smile again and they are not so far away as you think. It is terrible, awful pain but we're all here for you.

I am so sorry Amanda. That you had to endure such a difficult pregnancy and the loss of your little girl. I know that you will always miss your precious daughter, Brianna.

Thinking of you.

I am so sorry about Brianna. Life is so unfair. I'll never understand it. I am thinking of you as you go through this scary, painful time. We are all here to "sit with you". XOXOXO

Thanks for the support everyone. I am sorry that you all know exactly how I feel. None of us should have had to lose our babies.

I'm so sorry about your sweet Brianna. I'm glad you found us here, although sorry that you had to...... xoxoxo

I am just so sorry, Amanda, that Briana Tatum isn't with you. You are no alone. We are here and want to know all about your baby girl. xo

Amanda, I am so very sorry your precious baby girl, Briana isn't with you. On the 9th September 2010 I too lost a baby girl, Isla and we think from the same cause. I also lost a daughter in 2005, Catharine.
There was group B Strep and Ecoli found on her and I will find out was infection was in the placenta on Thursday.
I have been searching for others in my shoes such as yourself and would like to keep in contact if you wanted to.
X
Erica

Erica, Of course we can keep in contact. All I know about Brianna's death is that there was some type of infection, not sure what kind. They didn't test for the type of bacteria since by the time they performed the emergency c-section they had already been pumping high doses of antibiotics into me thru an IV in an attempt to control the infection and not have to deliver so early. Needless to say, it didn't work. So, all the pathology report says is that they found bacteria in the placenta, and therefore conclude that there must have been bacteria in the amniotic fluid too. We opted not to have an autopsy done on Brianna since the results wouldn't really give us any more information that would help in the future.